just spent five wonderful days in ft. lauderdale with katy. it was a much needed vacation. my life is hectic. i’m starting to burn out. working full time. school full time. it’s killing me.
i want to move. i want to move to ft. lauderdale. burlington is boring. and i hate snow. i hate the cold. i don’t ski, snowboard, build snowmen, or enjoy cleaning snow off my car, dealing with shitty drivers, and wearing parkas and gloves and toques. nothing is keeping me here. i want to travel. i want to wear sandals and cute sundresses all the time. i want to party in foreign countries and meet fascinating people.
i want to get away from here.
i swear it was a full moon this weekend.
we saw many people this weekend. people who play such major roles in our lives in ways that hurt us. yet we just keep going back for more. we’re gluttons for punishment.
we can’t let it go. but as katy said last nite, sometimes you just can’t help it. and she’s so right. we may be setting ourselves up for heartache and heartbreak, but in the end, your heart tells you to keep trying. i just hope our hearts are right in the end.
on that note, men are stupid.
I realized last nite that nothing ever really changes. We are the same people we were when we were born. I saw a friend last nite who I sort of fell out with during the course of high school. It was nothing either of us really did, we were just on different paths. We became friends in grade 2 and were inseparable all through public school. When I look back and think about it, I always knew that she’d end up on the path she’s on. I’m also pretty much on the path I think she expected me to end up on. For the first time in a long time last nite though, I think she finally came to accept that I’m wild and crazy. I always felt she didn’t accept it. It might have also been the tequila sunrise’s she was drinking haha. Either way, she’s happy with her life and I’m happy with mine and that’s what truly counts in the end. And I think it’s safe to say that we’re happy for each other. What more can you wish for an old friend other than happiness?
The stars were aligned last nite. I’m surprised it wasn’t a full moon! It was an eventful evening. From the Red Rooster, to the Queen’s Head, to Joe Dog’s, to the Dickens. Haven’t done anything like that in a long time! The Red Rooster sucked. They had some guy and his acoustic guitar playing. I thought the kid was going to cry or something. He was so emo. So we stayed there for half an hour and got the hell out of there. Next up was the Queen’s Head. We got some food. Dan and Katy played pool. Katy schooled him both times and it was hilarious. After that we were going to all go home, but Miss H sent me a text requesting my presence at Joe Dogs. I knew I couldn’t pass that up - when on earth would that happen again?! Well we went, had some laughs, and ran into a fine gentleman whom Katy was ecstatic to see. Him and his (very intoxicated) friend convinced us to go to the Poacher but we convinced them to go to the Dickens. And boy am I glad! My high school crush was there and goddamn that made my night! That made my 2007! haha. We stayed until close and then headed off home. All in all, I had a fun nite. Saw quite a number of people and it was awesome!
Now if you’ll excuse me, I have an essay to write! *barf*